Anxiety War

Sick and very hungry, I finally scrounged some good vittles while dumpster diving on a snowy night.

I eventually went inside the police station to confess.

Some trash is worth more than what people think.

My mother and I dig through the trash on a Sunday afternoon to see if there's anything worth taking.

This video expounds how I conserve money in my everyday life, from buying burgers for only 25 cents to parking anywhere in the city at no cost or penalty. And here's how I pay less for gas per gallon: https://www.fuelrewards.com/fuelrewards/welcome.html?RefId=0226ab312fa04171b984de2ac61035b5 There will be more videos to come as soon as I get my wisdom teeth taken out. I'm thinking about doing it myself... no, just kidding. Don't be too cheap! Enjoy.

Recently I had four wisdom teeth removed (impacted and buried beneath the gums) with local anesthesia only so I was fully awake and not high or sedated during the operation. I don't really understand why most people prefer to be knocked out -- it's not that bad being awake, plus you won't say anything stupid to your pesky friends or family afterwards. I also wanted to drive myself home because I love driving. :D My mouth was still a little swollen when this was filmed so please don't make fun of meh.

In a world bruised by violence, it's important to never let fear get in the way of having fun. For my own pleasure, I try to take a different approach.

An antisocial Friday night of checking dumpsters for cool stuff with my date Skelly somehow ends up with me making friends with people who share a common interest. Later, I'm pulled over by the police while having a skeleton in the passenger seat.

Here are some quotes about fear and individuality that I've found helpful over the years. Are you afraid of being in the cemetery? Don't worry, someday you'll get used to it.

I wrote poems with very deep meaning and shared them with total strangers, mostly human. TRANSCRIPT OF POEMS: 1:10 Unable to restart This bullying is tearing me apart Last to be picked for the team “He’s so weird,” they scream Flicking pencils at me in class Someday I’ll throw you through glass Stuffing trash down my ear When I get older, I’ll make you disappear Shoving me around in the hallway, calling me gay Your butt will be mine someday Don’t be confused, I’m actually straight I’m just talking about your fate Keep laughing at me, you’re all so mean Keeping pushing me, I don’t care about my self-esteem Because one day I’ll victimize you under my regime For it is all of you who made me this extreme 2:31 I don’t need to write an essay This is child’s play Keep those with hatred at bay Don’t let them stay Make them run away They are your prey How dare they betray! I remind you of Dexter, you say? “Sociopath” is cliche Give me some leeway Dexter would slay Meanwhile, I love Green Day 3:19 You are what you eat You’ve heard this on repeat No need for fork or spoon That’s the wrong tune Forget about the crumbs Listen to the drums No energy to be had My tempo will soon go bad I’m just trying to survive Eating myself alive Devouring myself Just like everyone else 4:29 Heat Feeling warmth, it feels so nice So rare, but comes at a price Dreaming of love, waking up to dread I can’t get these thoughts out of my head My blood is starting to steam This is my life’s theme Overwhelmed with fear I can’t shed even one tear Being burned alive My brain is stuck in overdrive Put out the fire, please For it is only you I really need 6:04 Sprinting along the trail My skin starts to become pale Heart pounding through my chest The last thing I need is rest Sweat pouring down my face Physical exertion isn’t the case Exhausted but not needing water Mind consumed by the slaughter No appetite to slow down These tho

I found some pretty cool stuff dumpster diving last night, including four Dell computers and a Trek bicycle. I'm also posting on Instagram meow!

For this year's Mother's Day, I went on a shopping spree and gave presents to women who are not my mother -- complete strangers, in fact. Father's Day is coming!

This is a review of certain types of YouTube videos I've always found to be difficult to watch. You may feel different; this is just how I feel. Videos where it seems as though kids are coached on what to say are the WORST! Hickey pranks can be troubling too but not nearly as bad as ASMR eating videos, cRuNcH CRUNCH. Thanks for the kind messages!

I find some rad Nintendo Wii stuff in GameStop's dumpster before eventually satisfying my hungry stomach. To those who think there isn't a heaven, how do you explain a dumpster full of foam blocks? Dumpster diving? No... DUMPSTER FLIPPING!? YES!

A wonderful man preached, "Dog food doesn't feel so gross to the starving man!" at the royal wedding. WELL SAID! Here is WHAT'Z TRENDINZ ON ZE INTERNETZ this week.

Here is the first episode of Zaxter's Deep Thoughts: WOMEN. Enjoy! But please note that Zaxter is just a character and not necessarily representative of my life nor how I feel. For instance, I am not actually single nor looking for a girlfriend; I am very happy with Skelly. Thank you!

I found a small bicycle while dumpster diving recently and gave it away to a little boy on the streets. I think he likes! :-) WHO SAID IT'S MEAN to give away stuff I find in dumpsters?! Apparently a ton of commenters on the "Giving people what I find in dumpsters for Christmas" video... yall don't understand the meaning of potential. Some of the best things in life are not cared for enough.

For many decades, some preachers have been telling people not to listen to Led Zeppelin because of perceived hidden messages audible when playing one of their songs in reverse. This video spotlights what the true wicked force is. LEAVE OUR MUSIC ALONE. Show them who's boss by sporting a quality Led Zeppelin T! https://amzn.to/2M1zYcM I love Green Day.

Too tired to dumpster dive late at night, I wake up the next day on a mission to find cool stuff behind stores that are inevitably open for business. The problem? PEOPLE... I try not to get caught digging through trash by the seemingly endless flow of employees.

Here is the 2nd episode of Zaxter's Deep Thoughts: INVISIBILITY. Please note that Zaxter is just a character and not necessarily representative of my life nor how I feel. Enjoy!

Congratulations to Reviewbrah for BECOMING A BOSS here on YouTube. From being ticketed at the cemetery for playing Pokémon Go to clingy monkeys, here is WHAT'Z TRENDINZ ON ZE INTERNETZ this week.

A night of dumpster diving with my girlfriend Skelly is productive in correcting grammatical errors on doors behind businesses. We later stop at Walmart to collect some food but Skelly isn''t having it... we may break up soon.

While riding my bicycle today, I saw a drunk driver almost hit someone on the sidewalk. I pedaled to the vehicle and noticed the driver was out of it so I took away her keys before she could take off again. She was not happy. I thought alcohol was supposed to make people happy? GET OFF THE ROAD. Yes, that makes me happy.

Magnet fishing FAIL! I was trying to find cool stuff made of metal in the river but ended up annihilating my iPhone instead. Failure all the way around... no biggie though, I already bought another one on the cheap. Oh, and I also ordered a WATERPROOF CASE because I live in Michigan and we're simple folks with a lot of water. For the record, I achieved A's in high school and college. Street smarts? I'd like to think I have them, but not definitely today... we all make mistakes in life, children.

I found another kids' bicycle in the trash so I fixed it up and gave it away on the streets. It now rides excellent!

This is reflecting on this week's news on a more personal level.

While dumpster diving in the daytime, it's betta to wear nice clothes to blend in and avoid suspicion. If you don't dress nicely, you may not succeed at all...

Recently I learned that my longtime girlfriend Skelly wasn't being true to me so I had to break up her. It was VERY HARD to do, and I don't think she SAW it coming, but it's for the betta because I can't trust her anymore. I'm still heartbroken but I think I'll get over it with time. Our relationship had always been pretty dry though so maybe this is a blessing in disguise. I just want to thank you all for your nice comments in dealing with this hard matter.

Dumpster diving in a slightly more affluent neighborhood proved successful!

After going to Toys "R" Us for the last time ever, it felt good to dumpster dive for no other reason than to have fun. Yes. No, yes.

Going from a seemingly giant spider to a seemingly giant lie, this dumpster diving video tells a story. What do you think? Did he really died? CAN YOU FIND WALDO IN THIS VIDEO!

My ASMR channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCl50BqNnUFtiTOyRJpAkRcA Thanks all. OF COURSE I'll still be uploading on this channel. :-)

I went back behind Kohls [sic] with electrical tape and scissors to make things right while dumpster diving. YAS FOR STRIPED SOCKS! Here's the reverse peephole viewer tool if you don't believe me, it's mad: https://amzn.to/2IPZLlm My ASMR channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCl50BqNnUFtiTOyRJpAkRcA/

This is from May 2013 when I was 20 years old. THE CRINGE.

The apostrophes were taken down AGAIN!!! History repeats itself. :-( I've concluded that it's impossible to fix this world of missing apostrophes. I GIVE UP. My ASMR channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCl50BqNnUFtiTOyRJpAkRcA

While daytime dumpster diving today, I learned that I have some competition.

A sexual predator I helped bust, Steve Wood, is now out on parole. Remain vigilant! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tw75LZmCefs http://mdocweb.state.mi.us/OTIS2/otis2profile.aspx?mdocNumber=939229

Here's a compilation of various clips I've never shared before from back in the day since I was 20 years old. My personality was the same but given the subject matter of what this channel was all about then, of course I appeared more serious in my videos.

Today I enjoyed a lovely bike ride around my city while meeting an array of wonderful people.

He still needs to socialize more but I'm very excited for him to be a part of my life and in future videos as he continues to meet lovely new people.

Just doing a little shopping before riding ma Schwinn on the city streets.

Working for yourself has its advantages and disadvantages. In this video, I share my experiences in what it means to be self-employed, specifically in the realm of internet entrepreneurship (website building and programming).

I'll do more videos like this! Happy October!

A new YouTuber faces many challenges I address in this video, where I give my experience.

Talking to strangers is simple -- just say anything!

More important than not fearing to ask people questions is not being afraid to question those who ask them.

I'm late for an appointment. Fun bicycle riding as always -- talking to random strangers in the city.

Drawing strangers in public and giving them the masterpiece, haha. When I first started doing this, it freaked me out, but now it's SO MUCH FUN.

WALDO HAS NOW BEEN FOUND.